Dying for the day I can see the storm being over. No more sad tears just its replacement. The ideology that I once had is no more. Stepped out of my comfort zone only relying on my prayers, casting all my fears into the sky. Only hoping for the best, not trying to be someone who has it all but still lonely on the inside not opting to be a shell of who I once was. The voice of inspiration has led me to lead by faith and not to rely solely on my emotions, too many shattered pieces none of which could ever make me whole. While dating I am sure you have heard others talking about the future (whether you are the one or not), it begs a lot of questions but when you ‘prepare for anything’ the only thought that truly runs through your mind is ‘What if I actually lose it all in the blink of an eye?’ I guess hearing those words does actually weaken the heart.
With every person you meet whether by fate or by accident at some point things may fall apart for it is true for the most part that as people we are never truly content with what we have; at some point we venture out seeking more than our fair share leaving something good in hopes for something better. The grass is not always greener on the other side folks, you won’t quite understand it until you have met something to that effect. It is exciting and fun in the beginning but as the dust settles you start seeing it for what it truly is,
- Something not worth having for an extended period of time.
- It is like passing time for hours at a time no real substance.
- It is good just not for you.
- If the ties were not necessary then you would have disposed of it from the get- go.
- It is like being on a never-ending roller coaster.
- You start ignoring it until when it is all said and done it was like it never exist.
- It bombards you with unnecessary drama.
- You end up feeling clustered.
- You just want what you want and be done with it as soon as possible.
The endless love others try to give is over looked often times we wonder why or feel some type of way because of it, I can assure you five out of ten it is never really because you lacked something it is just simply never about you in this sense, just doing what you have to get by is all there is to it. There is one person for every ten billion and more people in the world that will never leave and all that is needed is ‘honesty’ or so they say. We have become corrupt and selfish with our desires, however; leaving us to forget what is actually important. Taking the first step into the unknown takes courage, not everyone will take such a feat willingly, you have to enforce it.
The odds will not always be in your favor remember that, bear in mind that you do not wish to hold the blade, getting the shitty end of the stick. What I am trying to say is simple you will not get the fairytale ending you have dreamed of at age 9-10. What you have right here is reality being as brutal as sin itself it shows you a good time one filled with promises but never actually comes through on anything. Be sure of what you want before going for just anything, the scale will tilt either way.